Sorry for the whiny post. I almost deleted it, but then, that would be kind of cheating. Anyway, last night I was praying about my “introvertedness” and felt very convicted about what I mean when I say and feel like “I need to get time alone.” I’ve posted about this before here, but alas, I have obviously still not fully learned the lesson.
I think more than being an introvert and just needing quiet and time to think, what I mean when I want to be alone is that I want to walk out on my life for a while. I want to cut ties with everyone and everything. I want to be released from all expectations, obligations, friendships…everything. I’m an independe-vert. I long (sometimes) to be an island. This is probably the reason why I don’t run to The Lord when I do get time away. He is also who I am running from.
This is challenging. This is not something easily resolved. This is humbling. But, this is me.
My name is Jess and I am an independe-vert. Anyone want to join my support group?